Misunderstood 7-17-2010

I’ve been angry lately, I will take it out this page
I’ve been engaged in a cage 
This is my coming of age
Fighting off spirits who cherish evil
I’m burning my sage
Weighing what’s worth it in life
I start to use my own gage
I’ve been fine on my own
So I will stay in my lane
With every lesson I’ve grown
So I embrace change
I stay in my zone
My Thoughts are different, deranged
The mark I’ll make on this globe
Will be like a stain
What happen to the days
When you could count on someone
Knowing that you could use faith
And appreciate love
Values deteriorate 
Making crows from the doves
Things are in disarae
From where they originate from
Back to the rhyme that I am writing
To express how I feel
I am thunder and the lightning
what you don’t see but feel
I’m the metaphor the undertone
I bring life and kill
I am certified with truth inside and
Layers to peel
Why sometimes it seems my drive takes off and it crashes
Why only 10 percent will understand but I speak to the masses
I feel like a quarterback who throws incomplete passes
Almost as if I am impotent and I living life flacid
Why do I want to nourish and enrich but I’m viewed at like acid
almost as if I have to live alone, there is noone to laugh with
and cry with and ride with, noone to confide with
In all aspects a friend someone I can fly with
No fam understand me as just being me
Who can see who I will be when I’m actin out honestly
Who will believe in me when expressing the views that I see
Who can be there when I ask for a shoulder to lean
I know the weight I can bare, you can count on me
But when I do the same I’m often labeled crazy
I know the God in me will be there to save my sanity
I feel like a giant whose an ant in the middle of the sea
Out of his element I’m heaven sent 
but live with hades
Who lives a life at best serenity is pergatory
This is a chapter not the rapture of my epic story
I share these thought with you but they are really for me
I chose to never scream or to be to mad or to glad
Or sad because I remember and know what I have
I also know what I need
And that is to always feed
On every facit of life failure and when I succeed